Happily Ever After

There are little things in life that I thought would bring me joy. I thought having my first child would be an amazing experience, but because my child's father decided he wanted to get back with his ex then proceeded to make my pregnancy so miserable, all that drama and she ended up leaving his #ass #karma. I spent that whole pregnancy alone. My most upsetting memory during that pregnancy was. Driving from the doctors office and my muffler fell off I cried and cried and cried. Then I proceeded to drive to the shop dragging the muffler all they way there. Then I didn't get the wedding I wanted because #covid wanted to show up and show out, so I ended up just getting married on my day off and it is what it is. Then I have another baby and I thought for sure this would be my dream pregnancy, but there something about the opposite sex that I seem to attract is mean partners during pregnancy. Ended up getting a whole apartment while I was pregnant now evening knowing who i would make those damn high ass payments. smh but, Thank god I was able to work 3 jobs, also I fell flat on my belly while I was pregnant that was a scary mess.

Now let's move on to homebuying, I must be cursed lol, where do I even start, the stress from being a realtor/first-time buyer. I'm ready to walk away. The inconsistency the yes and no. the nitpicking the emotional ups and downs. people how am I still standing. I must say I'm a REALTOR at Gowdy Group Realty, and I thank Ricky for saving me from myself with his encouraging words. because #BABY! when you can get inside your head and start questioning your own name, especially when you don't have the support you would like to have, it gets hard. I was this close to saying #fuckit